Jasper (Mar 13, 2008-Oct 1, 2016) What I learned!

img00027 img00026A piece of my soul was taken away on Oct 1, 2016 and graciously received back to Source. I now know what the terms “Beloved”, “Soul-Mate”, “Soul-Group” and “Twin Flame” all mean. They are all pieces of our one Soul; of course technically we are all part of the same “One” Soul. However, we have individuated and here to experience life and make choices between love and fear. When we gather together to create a Soul Group we separate out pieces of a larger Soul Consciousness and divide up how we will assist one another to Evolve our Consciousness and experiences.

kitten-007Years ago I had a reading from someone who said, I would be in a relationship with a man with white hair, who was beautiful and would heal my heart. I just always assumed this meant a ‘man’. I never expected it to be my Beautiful, Happy, and Loving Boy Jasper.

The experience that triggered his end came because it was supposed to, a raccoon of all things, something he was well acquainted with, but this triggered an animal instinct within him that caused him to feel he wasn’t safe in his own home. Of course the tumor had been there for some time, he just never showed me anything until the past two weeks. The stress from this event must have pushed his tumor into a place that blocked off fluids from going through his body to within his body. This caused him to go into mostly instinctual behaviors. When I got the devastatingtoronto-20120512-00235 news Fri and Sat, he was still stressed and very uncomfortable, as well as not feeling safe. Once the heartbreaking decision was made, that meant I couldn’t be selfish and fight for him, I let others know. Our neighbors came to say goodbye, my landlady wept openly as we shared what a special boy he truly was and my best friend Vivi came to help me in my time of need. She had just held him and listened to his thoughts and concerns about me. And about 15 mins before I had to take him to the vet, I once again held him. It was this time that he finally let go of the stress he had been holding onto. He finally went silent in my arms and closed his eyes. I heard part of his words, and the rest came to me since that moment.

toronto-20120519-00240He has been with me for many, many lifetimes. He always came as my ‘familiar’, coming in at times when he was needed. He came when my father passed away at 13 as Skippy, he was Spirit who many of you knew, who came to assist my spiritual journey (irony not lost on me) and he came as Jasper when I needed to heal my heart after a difficult breakup, but of course it was a heart that was broken since birth (and lifetimes before that). He told me I was finally ready to open my heart to another and as long as he was there, I wouldn’t be fully open to this. And of course he was right. I must have told him a hundred times a day; I loved him toronto-20120516-00236with all my heart. And he filled my emotional needs as well as spiritual. As long as he was there, I wasn’t open to have someone else in my heart. He filled my heart completely with his unconditional love. He was there to make me laugh when I was sad or depressed. He knew exactly what I needed emotionally. And today, I realized that he taught me everything about the Power of the Heart, since being with me. He was my guide spiritually that downloaded what I needed to know. What I needed to remember.

toronto-20120512-00233The pain of losing a piece of me that has filled my heart with love has been unbearable. I know he will come back, but he will have a new purpose and will not be the same Beautiful, Happy and Loving Boy. And my heart knows that this time he will be a she. She won’t interfere with my relationship. But fulfill another purpose. My heart knows that everything will be all right, but the part that feels the emptiness misses him with all my heart! He was my heart for 8 and a half years. And I’ll miss all the things he did that made him Jasper! Trotting down the sidewalk towards me; jumping on my shoulder; butting his head into mine to share his affections; announcing himself when he arrived home, waiting for me after he walked part of the way with me to do my errands or go out for dinner; sleeping on my belly and chest while he purred and of course his beautiful tongue that was always slightly out of his mouth. My neighbors and friends have all their own stories of how Jasper touched their lives. He didn’t just heal my heart; he touched the heart of everyone who met him.

To the Love of my Heart, I will miss you terribly! Till we meet again!


  1. How lucky you were to KNOW Jasper and spend a piece of this lifetime with him. Same for him. How Beautiful is that, two healers living and learning from each other. Bless you for this reminder that we spend lifetimes in different forms and the soul clusters we meet enrichen our lives, our experiences to help us remember who we are. This Soul’s contribution is an energy hug. Lots of Love, Sookie C.

    1. Thanks Sookie!
      I know from my Heart this was so beautiful, yet grief is still grief!
      With Love and an Open Heart,

  2. Laurie, the love you shared opens my heart tonight, wider than its been open in some time. There is something sacred and other worldly the way these special animals mirror the Divine in us to us, and the Divine in everything to us. They help us laugh, and they are with us when we cry. They KNOW us even when we don’t know ourselves. There is something so POWERFUL and so EASY and to heart enrichingly LOVELY about the love they shower us with. Jasper sounds like he is all that and more. And I am so so so sorry for your loss. I feel the ache that is still fresh. And also the Higher Self you that knows it is all perfect and as it should be. And yet, the emotions are real right now too. Your soul filled connections are there timelessly. And in that timeless space, healing begins. And new communications between you commence. Just in new form. I love your insights shared here. So beautiful. Tender. And heart filled. You always sign your messages for us, With Love and an Open Heart. I see Jasper’s little white face coming through the “O” in Open, for Open Heart, for he did exactly that. He opened you. And expanded you. And loved you with the whole universe in his heart. I feel teary with you my beautiful soul sister. He is a special special boy. May his love now caress your sadness, and may your guides help ease your feelings of loss. May he always dance and play with you, and come to you in new ways. And new forms. 🙂 You are so very loved. And a treasure in my life as well. Your light inspires mine. Thank you for sharing so openly this pure love, this sacred boy, and your sacred heart. <3

  3. Dear Laurie I am so sorry for your loss. I loved precious Jasper in both incarnations! Our relationships with our animal companions is often times more intimate than the ones we have with our human counterparts as it is pretty much, and absolutely, the closest thing to unconditional love we can experience here on earth. You honoured him so beautifully here…he did such a great job and will live in all of the hearts of those that knew him. Much Love to you Laurie.

    1. Thanks Lauren! My Beautiful, Happy, Loving Boy! I felt that offering a Tribute to him would honor his deep presence within my life and those, like you, who met him!
      With Love and an Open Heart,

  4. You are welcome Laurie. I’ve been thinking of you all week and sending love. I hope your heart is soothed, and that you are receiving lots of light in your healing journey right now.

    I know you shared about the different ways “Jasper” has come to play and be with you this lifetime. And my heart swelled with the same knowing too. I have a white cat named Singa (sanskrit for Lion King) . . . with a little tan tail . . . and some tan spots. He has been my familiar through time. My soul friend and mentor. He came to me while I was in college and going through some growing pains. And he came again, in the heat of another time of deep work and lessons being learned. He is a guardian spirit. Some feel his presence as a shaman. He is an extraordinary being. And I feel the deep love between you and Jasper in the love that Singa and I share as well. It is a powerful essence. That lives beyond time, form, and space. But we feel it and know it in our core all the same.

    I’m thinking of you both, and sending much gratitude for the feelings you have inspired in me this week. Gratitude for the gift of the messengers we have in our lives. The gift of our familiars. And how they so perfectly and uniquely support us in our work here. And we support them. Its very special. And I am very sorry for your loss. But I also trust the healing process it is bringing on deep levels, and opening you to something new too.

    Gentle hugs your way!

    1. Jasper was also a “shaman” in fact he was called an Egyptian Shamanic Shapeshifter.
      They are indeed Blessings…

  5. My tribute to Jasper

    I have been fortunate enough to witness a beautiful spiritual journey, I guess literally really from Spirit, Jasper’s former self to Jasper. Having recently seen a number of Cats I knew personally and friends Cats pass on, it has been a deeply felt experience. Jasper was such a free and freely expressing Soul, so beautiful in his pure white coat, so playful and affectionate. It’s sad to know that he has gone on. So now leaving inspiring memories for us all, its a time to cherish, but also a time to realize the beauty of the higher journey we all have and the relationships that infuse such Love, as I saw between Laurie and Jasper. I was always inspired by how much he opened your heart he really was a catalyst of radiant love.
    With love and blessings

    1. Thanks Andrew!
      I had a dream last night and it was a conscious dream where she came through finally. She’s going to be beautiful too, I always thought calico cats were black and orange, however, they are white, orange and black. White for Jasper, orange or ginger for Spirit and black for Skippy. She will be about building my Unconditional Service.
      With Love and an Open Heart,

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